Bliss... Determination......confusion.........What?

..........err yet again am here ... after a long long time.... I was on of these yet another networking portals wandering absolutely like a nomad, no goals, no aims, no destination either. I go to a profile and suddenly stumble upon a neat blog.... and yet again my alter ego .. the so called "writer" popped up saying "Hey wassup dude... you havent chalked anything for long long time?" So here I am. Can I call it a stint of inspiration?
..hmmm I am just thinking of scribbling down on my own e-pad a few thoughts of mine. Recently had been watching a repeat telecast of a music show where in one of the best singers that the country has produced ever Dr. S.P. Balasubramaniam broached another musical genius Dr. Ilayaraja. The former calls the latter "Sangeeta Raakshasa" a Musical Demon. Well I personally feel that anyone ever listened to Ilayaraja must and should second SP's opinion. What an amazing musician!!!
Remember that song "naguva nayana madhura mouna...." or "nagu endide manjinaaa hoovu..." from one of those written off movies "Pallavi Anupallavi" made by yet another cinematic genius Maniratnam. Woah!! it just blows off my head. Those are what I call ever lasting compostions .... to the eternity. I remember of a collegue talking to me about Ilayaraja a couple of years ago. This collegue of mine is around 50ish... says had been to one of the recordings of Ilayaraja. He says that this musical genius comes into the studio with hand written hand outs of the notes and hands it over to 50 odd musicians and then starts recording. He stops the recording abruptly and calls out for a violinist on the last row and says "Appu you are not playing right my man" ......yeah that's amongst 50 odd musicians playing all the instruments simultaneously. Can any one deny with this man being a Musical Genius? Its an obvious taken for granted fact that the music that he composes is one of the best. Isnt that just BLISS?
A couple of weeks back on a balmy sunday morning .... just out of the bed I switched on the idiot box....and started surfing through those absolutely stupid channels.... I saw one of my favourite and one those innumerable Theater Geniuses Mr. Prakash Belawadi all dressed smartly with another gentleman Vedam Jaishankar on a talk show. I stalled. I found that they were talking to one of those normally pretty looking woman. I followed the conversation and found that her name was Malini Prasad and she happens to be an IIM post grad working for one of those stalwarts of the organisations who also help the globe to sustain the economic world. Finance.....freak show, the toughest I found probably. This conversation led to music. I got more engrossed in the conversation. This lady is a god damn professional trained classical singer. I was taken aback for a while. Cmon, man where the hell in the world did she find time to practise music in her busy schedule. Well, yeah, she has been doing that for 14 years of her life. Yes, ofcourse this woman does have a brand name now the IIM, well she says that it's great to have that tag on the forehead of her resume albeit she would be even more happier if she had a brand name of IIM, Indian Institute of Music. Now, That's what I call DETERMINATION.
Well, time for introspection, also retrospection, I've been so called "in & out" of the theatre. I dont know if I've to douse the fire that is within yielding to the societal dominance over me, or should i quench the thirst of getting there? Should I go on to become what I aspire to become when it comes the realistic world of whom I call the fools?? I will also have a post grad degree in Marketing and IT in sometime. But does that really help the thirst of the intellect?? Do I have to pursue my art?? Do I have to pursue my ambition and make it big in the matrialistic world... Can I call that CONFUSION? let me debate within myself .. will get back with more soon
Hasta La Victoria Siempre
Adieos
Obrigado
Your's Truly
Phaedrus