CHAOS CHAOS AND MORE CHAOS....................

..........it's been quite a while since i've been around here to probably script down the random thoughts that occurs...... hmmm should i say i was busy .... ......or should is say i was facing a deficit of thinking capital.....lolzzzz..... at this point i still do not have a title for this blog.......it's still kinda chaotic..... actually i was wondering it's been quite a while that i caught up with my friends also.... still asking myself the same question ....... am i busy?? am i tired?? or am i being ignorant of the fact how much these small things could actually mean to a human life?? is that the life i am leading at the moment ...... would that be called "living" or would that be called "existing" .....bur reconciling the fact that existing could be a phase which one has to pass through for living...... may be am consoling myself.....

......... but i guess through the years to come existing would definitely become living.... just wondering if i am putting in the right efforts at the right time.... yes, now i remember recently in one of the classes the professor was talking about the very fact how we tend to give reason to others that we are busy.... at least pose a false pretension of a mere affectation of being busy....
i guess one cannot really lie to himself/herself....... i reckon the fact that sometimes we tend to wait for a friend or a cousin in US to come online for hours together but we still cannot cross the road and catch up with a friend with whom you would actually share fond memories of your childhood..... are we still busy???

i still think i am digressing from the very fact that i thought i would script about..... ok i think i was focusing on something that was quite relevant to what happened in the class yesterday..... when the prof lit the spark of globalisation ........ and it actually kicked off a spark of some thought process..... it took me to a different plane of restrospection of the recent past of my life.... as i vaguely remember it was the 5th of November 2004 .... the first fest that was held at the abode called "RANGA SHNKARA" i witnessed one of the most beautiful plays I've ever watched it was called "PARAKRAMANA" . The very meaning of the word means invasion. This is a story of Spanish invasion of the Incan Civilization . The Spanish riot was lead by the legendary warlord "FRANCESCO PIZZARO" which led to the highest ransom ever payed in the history of mankind by the kind of Incas "ATAHU ALPA" who was revered the son of the Sun God. Cut to the present day world..... rapid globalisation has'nt left is far too behind in making a similar impact on our lives....... are'nt we paying up a far more huge ransom today....could be in terms of work culture, social responsibility.... values ..... what ever you term it as..... but as my manager always says "change is the only thing that's constant" so u better adapt yourself for the change and accommodate the change rather than crib.... so the focus is on well being in the globalisation. Cut to today .... need to get back home and do some studying... cos i need to keep apace with moving ahead peers of mine..... impact of globalisation on my socialization...should i say?.....

on the back of my mind there is one song playing now...............
" am waiting in my cold cell when the bell begins to chime...........reflecting on my past life it doesnt have much time.........cos at five 'o clock they took me to the gallows pole...... and the sands of time for me are running low"......... very true the sands of time are running low for myself too...... and still awaiting to get on to the gallows pole..... and i still struggle...... stuggle for existence so that i dream of living some day ... and dream far beyond my imaginations of reality to be faced......... another song humming on the back ground now " ........... i'm just a dreamer ....... i dream my life away....... i'm just a dreamer.....who dreams of better days "........ finally i wish if some one could really say when i've got on to the gallows...... "HALLOWED BE THY NAME".

singing off
Adieos

viva la vista

HASTA LA VICTORIA SIEMPRE